Another Christmas has come and gone, which means the year will soon end. To be honest, it flew by. Overall, it was actually a decent year for me. Some friends moved on, others came back into my life and I made some new friends as well.
The year seemed bad for relationships. My cousin Sara got a divorce. Her husband decided one day that he was going to leave and go live in Mississippi. I can't say it was a surprised. The one that really caught me off guard was my brother Matthew's. About a week ago she sent him a text saying she was unhappy. They decided to get a divorce. After a week, the decided that they were going to seek professional help and try to make things work.
I started a new job this year. While it wasn't the one I was hoping for, it's been a surprise. I actually like it. I feel a sense of worth again. I haven't felt that in awhile. The best thing that could've happened to me was getting out of that shitty motel. I'm only a few months away from a promotion that will change my life. I can't wait.
This year has especially been difficult for my family. We found out Jenny was pregnant, which is a miracle. Doctors told her for years that she wouldn't be able to have kids. Since she was pregnant, she wasn't able to take her depression medicine. She got real bad. When Cooper was born, there were complications and he spent a long time in the hospital. Thankfully, he is alright. He is a miracle baby. Uncle Tony has been unhealthy for awhile now. He's lost over 100 pounds and looks awful. Aunt Verna retires in August, and their plan was to move to Florida. He told me last night that he didn't think he would make it until then. Uncle Tony doesn't have kids of his own, just nephews. He treats us like his kids. He gives us money, and spends time with us even if Aunt Verna isn't around. He always tells us he wants to make sure we're taken care of. Unlike his nieces and nephews on his side of the family, we do things for him, and actually thank him for things he does for us. I can't even think about life without him. It'll kill my Aunt Verna. Jonathan, Matthew and I decided that we need to spend as much time with him as possible, and we need to help Aunt Verna with the transition. Uncle Bob isn't doing well either. He's getting older, and he's overweight. He's also a smoker. It sucks, because every time I see him with Cooper, he looks so happy. Uncle Bob looks scary, but he's one of the most thoughtful, nicest people I know. He helped me out when I was in trouble, and never once asked for anything in return. I don't like a lot of my family, but it seems like two I like the most aren't doing well.
I've became close to people I never really thought I ever would, while some friends that I never thought I could live without have become more distant. I can't tell you the last time I hung out with Kenny or Steven. Kenny and I used to hang out almost every day. However, with the ours we both work, and Kenny getting a girlfriend who lives an hour away, it's hard to spend time together. We still try to talk at least once or twice a week, but it's hard. Steven pops up every now and then, but I haven't hung out with him since early October. I've not talked to Jackie or Jen in probably five months. However, Sloan and Angela have became two of my best friends. I spend all day Sundays over there. We watch football, and she cooks dinner. I'm moving in with them soon. I'm close with Sloan's dad as well. He's a good man.
I didn't really have a meaningful relationship this year. I dated a few people, but never really felt that connection. I'm dating someone right now, but it's going real slow. She works nights, and I work days so we don't spend that much time together. It also sucks, because I don't want to bring her over here to dad's, and she lives with her mother. There's really no alone time. She's fun though, and I can actually tolerate eating dinner with her.
Things I need to do next year...
I need to see Derek. I've lost touch with him. He hasn't been home in over two years and I doubt very seriously that I'll get out there anytime soon. I think he's doing to be out there the rest of his life. It's hard, considering for three years, we were hanging out everyday, but each day I'm learning to live without him. That scares me.
Buy an Audi. I want one so bad. At this point, I don't care if it's an old A4. I just want one.
I've seen the Bengals and Reds play, but I've never seen a Suns game live, or a Michigan game live. I want to go to at least one of those games. Michigan doesn't play at Indiana next year, so that's out. The Suns will play a game in Indiana though, so here's to hoping I can get up and see it.
Get a new dog. Penny died this year, and I was sad. I loved that dog more than I love most people. Every now and then, I'll look over underneath the table thinking she'll be there. She wasn't the same dog she once was the past couple of years, but every now and then she would jump on the couch or lay on the floor beside it. She would let me pet her, show me that she was still sort of alive. She never once disappointed me, and that's more than I can say about any person in my life.
I'm going to jump off of here. Got to be up early for work. Can't wait until New Year's Eve. After work, I'm going up to Angela's parents in Dayton for a party.